| 12. bells on bob-tails ring, making spirits bright |
[20 Dec 2009|08:35pm] |
Only five more days until Christmas! Something tells me this is going to be my favourite one yet, even better than when I was seventeen the first time, which sounds strange to say, but considering how I came here thinking I was thirteen, technically I've been 13-18 twice, if you want to get technical about it. Anyway, we've been very busy around here, but not with patients, strangely. Most people think that there are more psych cases around the holidays, but in reality there are fewer, even if it's more stressful for some people. But we have been decorating everything, and getting everyone involved. It's part of our therapy now, to help decorate. It's very cathartic. And on top of that, Teddy and I decorated his flat too, and I might have gone a bit overboard with the tinsel. But at least the place has plenty of shine now. And a real Christmas tree that I picked out and lights and everything. It feels so domestic. I think my mother would be so proud.
I'm also arranging a group of carolers to sing in the children's ward all this week if anyone is interested in participating! We'll be going around everyday this week, singing a few carols each day, and then giving gifts on Christmas day. Anyone interested doesn't need to help all five days, just any they can.
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| 11. a sleepless night |
[26 Nov 2009|07:02am] |
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| 10. are you brave enough to figure out? |
[13 Nov 2009|04:44am] |
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| 09. it starts in my toes and i crinkle my nose |
[07 Nov 2009|05:23pm] |
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I got thrown up on today. It was disgusting and I had to go home to change because someone "borrowed" the spare robes I usually keep here. By the way, if you have those, I'd like to have them back, please, and washed first, if you wouldn't mind.
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| 08. coming undone |
[12 Oct 2009|05:42am] |
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| 07. i cut to the punchline baby |
[07 Jul 2009|10:14am] |
I have my interview this afternoon, and I think I'm almost prepared for it; my preparations are the reason behind my apparent silence in this journal. I should probably get back to it, but as they say, if I don't know by now, I won't know when the time comes, so maybe I ought to take the rest of the morning off.
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| 06. i'll stand for nothing less |
[25 Jun 2009|09:40am] |
Apparently I write in spurts and then go days and days without writing anything public. Is that usual?
Albus, have you been in my drawers again? I swear I'm missing my black socks with the ribbon at the top, but I can't figure out how you would have stolen them. And if you have, I thought I'd asked you to stop nicking my things and just ask for them. Or better yet, tell me what you want so I can get them for you. And I still want that skirt back.
I got my letter from Sanctuary yesterday, though. My interview is next Friday and and it's a good thing I have been working for a few days yet on what I might be asked and what I'll say. I just hope a week is long enough to prepare.
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| 05. forever and always |
[13 Jun 2009|07:47am] |
I've been having dreams lately, and none of them make sense. They're almost like memories, but fuzzy and somewhat vague, and they are of things that never happened to me. Last night I dreamed about graduating from Hogwarts, but it was different. My family was there. I didn't even recognise some of them, but in my dream I did. My therapist said if she didn't know better, she would have thought I was repressing memories, but that's obviously not it.
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| 04. a place in this world |
[09 Jun 2009|06:21am] |
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[Teddy]
You like cookies, right? I'm up early anyway, and I made a bunch some, so if you want any, I could send them to you. I would have sent them anyway, except I don't know what kinds you like, or where to send them
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| 03. and honesty fades |
[08 Jun 2009|08:26am] |
Kailiu, when we're finished with lunch tomorrow, I have a meeting with the DCR, but after that, I think we should go and redecorate your house. It's a little boring, I think. Oh! We could totally redo everything in a nice shade of blue or purple -no I lied, I think brighter colours, for summer. Yellow maybe? What do you think?
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Oh, and we should get a dog, Kailiu. A cute one that likes to run around and lick people.
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| 02. pull me back |
[07 Jun 2009|03:40pm] |
Albus, every time I take your advice on what to wear to things, I end up being whistled at like a dog, and today I got pinched. I love you, but never again. And I suppose you can have what I'm wearing because I won't be wearing it again. Sometimes I think your entire reason for being is to embarrass me.
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| 01. a shooting star |
[06 Jun 2009|06:00am] |
My therapist gave me this. My therapist. I suppose she thinks it will do me some good to write my innermost thoughts where other people can see them, instead of just her. Although, she did tell me that I don't need to keep up two journals now, and to just write in here to her instead of writing and giving the journal itself to her. I suppose it's more efficient this way, and I guess I'll see how it turns out.
~Victoire
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| 00. a crack in the smile |
[02 Jun 2009|06:11am] |
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined
When you were young
Can we climb this mountain
I don't know
Higher now than ever before
I know we can make it if we take it slow
Let's take it easy
Easy now
( Watch it go )
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